Current location:	The cage...the prison...my body
Current mood:	crappy
Current music:	Silence

Art = Pain?
Yes, art = pain apparently. I'm not doing too well at the moment. My muscles in my back bother me more then anything. They feel twisted, tight, sore, and throb like they're about to explode. It seems like at every Drawing session now, I'm dealing with some intense muscle discomfort. I just try to stay focus on capturing the model. I feel like I have a lot to prove to others, as well as myself. So, I never give up on a real pose. Drawing tonight was a struggle though. I don't think being off my meds for two months was a good thing. I didn't have a choice though. I really needed the root canal, and I couldn't stay on the meds as well. I tried, and the results were not pleasant. Do you want to know something? I haven't been up to going to my group lately, but I feel better when I'm there. Even through the pain. I'm so focused, and my work hasn't been too bad. I'm just tired of living like this. I finally started another drug. Cellcept. Hopefully, that will lead to remission. I just want to create beautiful work, and be able to enjoy life.


Anyways, I guess I should post some work here. This is probably one of my best pieces that I've created in a session.

14x17. Prismacolor Pencil